"Whatcha' gonna do for me"?

This is the one thing I plan on doing this weekend! That one word says it all. I want to do so many things, and it seems like I want to do them all at once. But at the top of the list is RELAX!

I don't know when I turned into this multi-tasking, get it done yesterday type person, but honestly sometimes I don't like her. I want her to leave and go on a sabbatical and come back with the next deadline.. problem is - there is always a deadline- there is always something that needs my attention. Since I have been typing THIS blog entry I have had to go back and "correct" abbreviations! What's up with that? "docutexting" is a whole "nother" world.

Not sure I remember how to relax, or how deep I want to go into relaxation. I am not a "sleep in kinda lady". I will answer the phone most of the time. With life as it is right now- turning the ringer off is not "really" a good option. What to do?

I need to keep on my increased plant eating lifestyle, so I definitely need to get some more recipes from somewhere I don't want get bored and overdosing on soy is not on my docket of things to do~ and a shrinking girl like me needs options. I don't know if curiosity killed the cat.. but I know boredom probably set in first and then curiosity reared it's head! I CAN'T have a boring menu!

I want to work in my garden - it's kinda hairy out there and the weeds will not win!

I want to read. I have several "books in waiting" the nook is a lovely thing when used properly - right now it's e-storage and not an e-reader. I can remedy that.

I will let you know what I decided on. I got to get back to assisting my laptop to doing what "lappies" do- work!(it's to my immediate right downloading new settings) ( I told you I multi- tasked) I hope I keep this promise to myself.

RtotheEtotheLtotheAtotheX!

How the heck have you been? Where the heck have you been?

Okay so I have been on the "lam" so to speak? Not really- I knew where I was and most of the time I know what I was doing. One thing I will say is this. Deciding to put up a blog -good idea.. not keeping it up- "not soo good".
For the past 2 days I have been revisiting my blog, this blog. I had no idea of the time that had elapsed since I last blogged. I did not go back and read anything but I decided that I would post a new pix and keep it moving in a positive direction.
Vlogging vs. Blogging... I think that being connected is just one of those things that is going to be. I dont mind it soo much as I mind the "way" and to whom I am connected. Most times folks just shroud and cloud.. no longer interested.
I just want dialogue- open dialogue. I vlog..but I am not totally sure what I can get out in 15min. Case in point for the past 7 days I have been doing something that is pretty cool in my world.. I feel better about doing it, but even w/ the vlogging I can't fully express how I feel but. I am getting there and I will figure it out. I guess what I am doing is revisiting an old habit(plant based eating ) but it's freaking clicking this time! The last time I was a plant based eating girl; I was dating a young man named Jamal. I was 2 yrs into my journey and he made me "mad"... instead of getting my frustration out and directing it toward the object of my "madness" I ATE a big honking cheeseburger... Got sick as dog and turned back into the biggest canivourous machine ever to walk the earth. Displaced anger has toppled many a good thing!
I figured out last week, that happened for a reason, because I was not ready, I was not committed, and I was "confused".
I think now I am ready, I am determined and the fog is lifting- and that's a start. Quinoa anyone?

Tuesday

Okay it's early Tuesday. I took Monday off - not really I just did not write. I have been having these "sinus like symptoms" and it just dawned on me what it is... can you say "detox?". I have been drinking vegetable/fruit smoothies almost every morning and this is really the most consistent I have been with them. These are almost pure veggie/ fruit ones. For sweetening I am using either 2 medigool dates or a banana! it's sweet enough. I guess at some point today I'll go to whole foods because I would like to find some dandelion greens. The ones from my yard are not to be trusted - why? I have a friend that walks the yard ( this is the one I know about) and he visits daily need I say more? I dont think I have enough veggie wash to get the "residue" off this stuff. so to whole foods I will go. Plus I tried some stuff called "calm" yesterday... shut the cramps right down, and it helped elevate my mood some. Occasional this girl stuff makes me "special" yesterday my special was in the way of "no energy"... but again that may be r/t the detox stuff too. - runny nose ( never have that) sneezing like I am getting paid by the number of consecutive sneezes ( if that's the case - Bill Gates - I am in your neighborhood to live - not cruising through!)I am going to exercise today - with my walking partner Tracy- or if she can't make it- the treadmill will be in my future... I expect to feel better each day. OOh and the candy from sunday has been put up in a double knotted sack.( theft deterrant) - it will be finding's it's way outta this house today :)
Selah~

Easy - Like Sunday Mornin' ( oh it is Sunday morning)

Hey everyone - am I on a roll or what. I decided if I am going to blog - then I need to blog. I also have another idea which just popped in my head. I may have to act on that - details at 11 ...
I am having a good day and it's yet early. I did not go to church today- but I am still a Christian. Not attending or attending church is not where the "work of salvation is wrought or maintained". It does help to fuel and power and gives perspection. I often recall 1timothy2:15 - which says it all. I ain't ashamed.
I am drinking my green smoothie. I had ordered a simple book which came in the mail yesterday unexpectedly fast.I already learned something. I need to switch my greens up! Reading is fundamental. I like to eat breakfast but not really. I can really have a good time drinking my breakfast in the form of a smoothie. I add one pkg of amazing grass to the greens and fruit and I am off and running for the day. This drink will hold you!

This week I plan on smoothie"ing" my breakfasts, souping my lunch, and eating dinner. My self dare? - amping up my exercise.

Going to plant some flowers and listen to cyber church on the laptop while I plant. Ya'll have a good day.
Selah.

Are you for real?

I have really prided myself on being as honest as I can for as much of my life that I can. I think the only person I've lied to is myself ~ For the past decade plus 5 years... I have made it a habit to be poignant - when that's called for. Transparent at all times, and honest even when it's not popular. I have found out that folks just really don't want or dont "believe" it when you practice honesty.
I have been labeled as brutal ( not true), unapproachable ( then later I am told-"but then I got to know you") and out for something - ( yep when I am being a friend - I am out to be - befriended-- that's all it really is) I am Blessed of God. I don't apologize for it, though in the past I have downplayed it for some reason. I dont now why should I? Folks that have what they have make no apologies for what they have. If the folks have nice cars, I rarely see folks leave the maybach in the garage and drive the 66 Falcon. If you have a nice home- folks are renting a room at the local hinky hotel and inviting the "fam" over for dinner and games.
I have come to the conclusion that I am for real, and I am not making any apologies for that at this point in my life.
I get teary eyed when I see folks with white hair ( whom are elderly) driving, making decisions, and living independently. My tears are out of happiness for them, and a part of sadness for myself. I have one grandparent remaining... and she has dementia. Doesn't remember who I am - whose I am or any of the things that made me grow up calling her Nanny.But I remember then, and my tears ar sometimes sad because I would have liked to see her doing the riding, making decisions, recounting history, getting older and mad etc.. and making memories w/ us where she is now.
I have made a concious effort to wean myself from relationships and things that just "aren't working" or that have caused me to have to compromise. Compromise in my world is not being able to speak my mind - but having to listen to your opinion "all the time" w/ the understanding that the other person is "always right". NOBODY IS ALWAYS RIGHT BUT GOD!In this vein I know I am maturing because I just used to listen to it the "drone" now I block and delete (menatally and figuratively is appropos). I like to talk, I like to read, I like to drink coffee and tea and discuss stuff in the world -I like to comment and talk about my struggles and problem solve and get problems solved. I have almost NO friends that like to do that. I have some "lifers" ( folks I have known for a long time) that surface when the sky is grey. I now know I need to see you when it's blue and the sun is out too.
I dont really have man woes- figured them out. Uh, let me qualify that statement. Husband woes = man woes. Life is short, and though obstacles and hurdles exist- I can work around or through them, but I am not interested in magnifying them. I dont discuss any of personal man issues with my "lifers" What did it for me? Talking to different women over the years and observing what other fella's do - found out that despite color , race, or creed will find them all doing the same things at varied (most of the times are predicatable)it's comical. I love my husband- he loves me. That's always a good starting point to remember when the day is good or when there something that needs to be resolved.

When folks are for real - it clears up the need for wondering what the other person is thinking. What am I doing wrong etc. What were you or I expecting of each other,etc...it just makes for a good day.
I have tried to share what I have learned with my friends /family that are young in marriage / and life. They dont want to hear it and my expiration date for my gig as the "voice of reason" stint expired about 4 years ago. (I was operating covertly with a past due expiration date for a bit there).
I have learned that being for real is good. I recently met a young lady at a meeting - she walked in friendly intro'd herself and everything. I was in quiet mode that day ( watching and listening). We have been friends since then, talking, laughing, walking in the park. And being honest w/o pretense.I now know that there are still some folks that exist that enjoy just pure friendship and being transparent.
I guess that means I get to continue on this road-- not that I wasn't going to anyway. ( Selah)

Wednesday is definitely Humpday

Okay, I looked at my yesterday post and honestly I dont know who that person is... It was me that typed it. Those were my words... but for the life of Kizmet ( no I dont know anyone named Kizmet)I can't figure out where the weirdness was bubbling up from. I think I needed to get out of the work place.
Today is better... all can breathe a sigh of relief, at least I can. 2 days of that "crazy" can't be good. I feel like a small upheaval of sorts is about to take place. Not anything bad.. just changes that have been lurking but have not surfaced. I dont know what is "bad" anyway..I think things that happen "just do".
Today I got out. Went to my fave hardware store, purchased some spring color. for the back yard. It's the place that gets the least amount of work but deserves a lot more. I decided that it's important for me to make that area my project ( among others) that will reward some dividend in the future.
I made some financial decisions and some spiritual decisions yesterday maybe that is why I felt so "weird" to much thinking.
I just wanted to document that 24 hours is a big deal-- it can make a girl like me - feel 100% better and have a more clear point of view. I am now sipping on passionfruit tea w/ lemonade and about to experience my new cd by john Legend and the roots.
Selah.

Tuesday ?

A few weeks ago a woman at work -- well kinda at work ( it's a long story) sent me an email about the days of the week. It was cute,it has a picture of a little girl who uses the day of the week as a barameter of her attitude for the day.I have tried to post the pictures but the new editor is unforgiving- or it might be an area of ineptness on my part? I dont know.
Back to my point, I keep referring todiffering faces of that girl and I honestly had to admit the accuracy is "spot on".
I have worked today...but my level of productivity has not been near about what I'd like for it to be ( I just had a flashback to the picture of the Tuesday girl. Her head is slumped back- and she's in a kind of special stupor that comes w/ Tuesdays. My issue is that I had a couple vacation days tacked on a the trip and it makes for a poor jump out of the work starters block.
I have a lot to do..I am just acting as if I dont?
I have some plants ( fall/winter) pansies...that came to my home yesterday...They did not leave the nursery to "die" so at some point in the next 24hours they will be placed in the ground by "me"... I was reminded that next month I have to go to head quarters... Part of what I have to do is spend time w/ folks and tell something of myself... am I that interesting? I have not done "show and tell" on this level in a while. I think I will take some pictures of my flowers... and my sewing machine...some of the other things I would take pictures of for show and tell would require "way to much explaination" and most likely would require more editing than I would like to perform...
I have almost made it through another year... God is good to me... I am reminded of that by some of the events of today and last week... I am rambling to some- but I know what I am saying. It's Tuesday and I need to get the rear in gear so I can sprint to Saturday. I hope you are having a good week too!