Today is a good day for a revelation. The revelation made me smile on my insides. For most of my life I have been controlled by my thoughts of perfection. Everything was black or white no room for grey ( even though it's a valid color/concept and has it's place in life and society LOL). I had the baby and the bathwater syndrome. Very good at completing task, but always feeling "failuresque" if it could not be done "just right". I realize that I just made up a word in the previous sentence, bear with me.
I am doing laundry and several other things at once my new version of multitasking but on a different tip. I know that what I am doing does not require perfection - but it does require completion. What caused me to put up this post is that I have been exercising but it's not been like it used to be. I am finding I am not regimented, or self condescending for not doing everything perfect. As of late my times have varied but I noticed increased willingness to tell me that "some is better than none". This is ALL NEW in the response arena for me!
The issue::Just a few minutes ago I was looking at a magazine.I learned last year to pull out what I need and discard the rest. This magazine was going through demolition. Secretly I was wondering what made me buy it initially. I found 2 salvagable pages with 3 recipes. One of the recipes I would like to alter and make tonight as a side-dish. I looked at it to see what I'd need. Some of the ingredients can be costly and not something I will use regularly, I am soo not into waste. I decided that I would not make the recipe because I did not want to buy 3 of the ingredients and have them sitting around only to go "bad". Note to self "you will still have to cook dinner".I realized I was missing an op to try something different and new. My all or nothing had reared its ugly head somewhere else. I am finding that some thought patterns are pervasive - they have literally infiltrated every area of our being. I want to root this one out, I've missed out on being more "merry" because of it.
The solution:: I am going to one of my local ethnic stores as these type ingredients may be cheaper there. If they are not I am going bin shopping at the speciality market and only "get what I need" to make one serving of the dish. I decided that I want to try this dish and not "wonder" if it's good. I want to KNOW.
It's simple math to one other person and a conundrum for another. I think I just found the answer to this math problem. Nothing from nothing does indeed leave nothin, but a little bit of this and a little bit of that may produce a WHOLE LOT of merry in my world. I am all for increased "merry",I need to lighten up...
Toodles~
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